What the F%$#!

How in one meal do you gain 4 pounds? I mean I get the science...but damn it...why??????? I was doing good this week until dinner last night which wasn't that high in calories. UGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGH

How much did that cost?

This weekend I had my neice. We had a fun time, did all the crazy stuff 2 year olds do. To cap off the weekend I decided to take her to Princess's on Ice. She is 2, she is a girl...what little girl doesn't like Princess stuff right? Well she loved the show...and I had fun watching her enjoying it. The issue I have isn't with the show itself, or even the cost of the show. It is with the cost of the little trinket crap that they sell every 5 feet.

Being the good aunt I am, I took her up to the crappy trincket booth and said...Peanut, pick out whatever you want. Well the guy working the booth is waiving a lit up wand kind of thing that he said played music but being that there were 10 thousand people there I didn't hear a thing. So my neice...being 2 and always picking the first thing she sees, says she wants the wand the guy is waiving...I say...wait, lets look at everything. So we pick out 3-4 things and I say, ok, we have it narrowed down, what do you want? She still picks the damn wand. Ok, I said she could get whatever she wanted to get so fine, I'll take the wand.

That will be $28 bucks the guy says. At first, nothing registers in my head. I had the guy the cash. My neice happily is waiving her wand. I am smiling because she is so happy. Then we get to our seats. I sit down, and it clicks. I just paid $28 freaking bucks! Wait I say to myself, was it really $28 bucks? Could that be? Why yes, it was. $28 freaking dollars for a peice of plastic!

Lesson learned, first of all, ask the price...Second...don't give a 2 year old cart blanche on whatever she wants. It isn't that I have trouble spending $28 on her...it is that it was $28 on a peice of plastic that is probably already been forgotten about and that will not light up, play the music or anything in 48 hours. Next time...I will go ahead and pick out some smaller ticket items that I won't get pissed about and let her pick from those. Instead of the $28 wand from hell!

I did it again!

Worked out again last night. Down 2 pounds this week. The same 2 pounds I was up last week, but at least the scale is headed back down.

I did it!

Last night I worked out. 40 min on the treadmill and light weights. It is a start.

Did you know, that according to Fitday.com playing ping pong burns more calories then a slow walk at 2.5-3.0 mph! So my coworker and I have committed to playing every day. And you know what? I believe it does burn allot of calories...because I break a small sweat every day! It could be from chasing the darn ball all over...but hey, it is a sweat, so I will take it!

Still having trouble with my hot water with lemon in the morning for the fat flush. Anyone got any suggestions?

Back on the wagon

I originally started this blog to help hold myself accountable for my weight loss. In reading what I have written in the past month, I have done very little of that. Shame on me. I am only down 3 pounds after 3 weeks. Yes, I know, a loss is a loss. But I just keep thinking about what I could be losing if I really focused.

In the past I have lost 2-3 pounds a week when I have been focused. That is 1200-1500 calories a day, and the gym 5 days a week. I got back on the 1200-1500 calorie thing, sort of...with a few little hiccups, but I cannot get myself to the gym to save my life.

There are several reasons:

1) I hate going at this time of year. It is always so packed with people who just made new years resolutions that I can't get on a treadmill to save my life. And I really do not want to wait in line to work out. I have far better things to be doing with my time.

2) This is our busy season at work so I am putting in massive hours.

3) I have been sick.

But as I type these out I realize they are nothing but excuses. I have been busy before, I have been at the gym during its peak times, and I have gone when I have been sick and with broken bones. Why is it so hard to get on track again? 2 years ago when I started working on myself I was so focused that you couldn't get a lick of sugar past these lips. Now, I find an excuse for everything. What changed and how do I get what I had back?

Anyone with any suggestions, please, give them to me. I am open.

Also, if anyone has tried the Fat Flush program I would love to hear from you. I have had success and like what it does for me...but I can't get down the hot water with lemon in the morning. I know this is a key component in helping with water retention but I dread that part each and every morning! Email if you have suggestions at law10_9@yahoo.com or post in comments. Thanks.

Sick

Its that time of year again when all the germs seem to converge upon those of us in the blistery cold. I managed to avoid it for several weeks, but this weekend got hit with the dreaded cold. There isn't much you can do about colds...other then suck it up and deal. So here I am....dealing. Really wishing I could be in bed though.

Here to tissues and cough drops!

Too cute!

Here is my neice and my husband. Can you see why I love this little girl so much? Do they get any cuter? Yes I am biased. Cheeto face and all!

I was in the picture but chose to cut myself out...not one of my better pictures.

Birthdays

When I was a kid, my parents went way out of their way to make my birthday extra special because it was right after the holidays. I had special dinners. Handmade gifts. Friends over. Big cakes. All of it. As I got older and moved out, for some reason I still expected this to continue. Of course it didn't. From my parents I get a check and if I am lucky a phone call. But for some reason I still anticipate my birthday like it is my wedding day. I expect to wake up, have all my friends at least call me. To have my husband lavish gifts on me. To have my coworkers have a huge party for me. Guess what....it doesn't happen like that.

I don't want to complain. Because my birthday was very nice. Nicer then most people ever get. But I didn't get the big bang I used to get out of my birthdays. I got a lovely gift from my coworkers. A fabulous night on the town from my husband. Cards from my family. I guess maybe that is it. My parents have the capability to continue to do the cool stuff they used to if they wanted. They have the internet, they have a car, they have the cash. But I get a check. For both Birthdays and Christmas. When I first started out on my own, a check was great...much needed to pay bills. Fortunately my hubby and I are in a good spot and don't need the random cash like that. It would be more meaningful for me to get a cheesy gift from them. I have told them this...but alas...still no gift. I should get over this..not get bitter. I know this. But I struggle to understand why when I have told them I would prefer a $5 candle over a $50 check they don't get it. Or why they choose not to.

Oh well. I guess I will never get through to them and just need to move on.

I did get a fantastic call from my neice in which she said "Happy Esa!" "Wuvvy Esa". To those of you who don't speak 2 yr old, that was Happy Birthday Lisa and Love you Lisa. That made the whole day for me. She is the light of my life. Isn't it amazing how someone so small can do such a little thing and make you happy? I am amazed by it every day!

Rosie VS Donald

I have been following this feud since day one. Checking tmz.com multiple times a day while at work to find out who said what now. Here are my thoughts on the whole thing.

1) I like Rosie, always have. But she did take her original comments a little far. She was correct to say that Donald should not be looked at as a moral compass for anyone, let alone 20 year olds in America. With 2 ex wifes that he cheated on...no way. Her hair thing...funny stuff....face it, he has bad hair. But the whole bankrupcy...without having facts in front of her, she should have been cautious on what she said about it. Knowing what kind of sue happy person he is.

2) I don't like Donald as a person, but he has done some things on The Apprentice that have made me tune in. However, the comments he made were WAY out line. He was mud slinging at her like some little kid who didn't get his way. The comments he made were very offensive to many people. Especially those people who carry a few extra pounds. As a result, his new season is tanking because he offended people so much they won't watch it. I won't be...and I used to not miss an episode. I refuse to help promote someone who is so completely insensitive, ignorant, mean, and so many other words I can't put in here. I do find it funny now that his show is not doing so hot how he is trying to spin stuff. That is a clear sign of someone whose head is to big for themselves.

3) Barbara and defending Rosie. Barbara is a reporter, plain and simple, they are supposed to remain neutral..so I get why she didn't say something at first. I am glad she has now. Did she ever make comments to Donald about Rosie? I doubt it...his head is so warped that he probably spun "Rosie likes to keep things lively" into the whole lying with pigs comment. No..I think Barbara is ok.

I will be interested to see if this thing is over. I do feel bad for Rosie's family in this. Her kids have had to hear things they shouldn't have because of their mothers job. But I guess that is a price you pay when you become popular like she has.

In my mind Rosie wins this one.

Week 1ish

So I finished my first week (yeah I know that I started this more then a week ago) down 4 pounds. Probably would have been more but I had a huge dinner the night before weigh in. Stupid I know, but damn it tasted good.

Now just let me get through this weekend and it should be smooth sailing. Since it is my Birthday weekend I am sure I will have many tempting treats!

Wish me luck!

Gym etiquette

I have to ask another stupid question. Am I the only person in America who thinks that people have poor etiquette in the gym? Example: Woman on the elliptical machine popping her gum so loud it can be heard over the loud music. Why? First of all, if you are chewing that hard, can you really be getting a good workout? Second, don't you understand that it is so annoying to hear that?

Second Example: Man on treadmill sweating profusely. Uses his gym provided towel to not only wipe the sweat from his brow, but from his arm pits, his back and every other body part you can imagine sweating. And then, proceeds to use the same towel to wipe down the machine as the gym management has requested.

WHY????? That is so gross!

Finally, why do the skinny people who work at the gym give those of us less then skinny people "the look" when we walk in. Like "why the hell are you even trying you fatso". I swear I get that from the Size 2's when I walk in. It is so annoying and I really want to hit them in their skinny face!

Maybe some day I will get it. But I doubt it. I have come to realize that in this world so many little things/people annoy me. I am not saying I am perfect and don't annoy others. But at least I try to keep my annoying habits to myself and not force the rest of the world to deal with them.

Happy New Year

Call me a loser, I was in bed by 10:30 on New Years Eve...and woke up at midnight to hear my neighbors fireworks...and promptly went right back to bed. Loser!

But I am resolving to make 2007 a more adventurous year. Some things I would like to do:

Go on a hike. I have never walked for fun
Stay up till midnight on New Years Eve
Meet with my friends at least once per month
Take two trips on my own without hubby

I will add to this list as time goes on, hopefully it will be a long one that I can check off regularly.

I excersised 3 times this weekend...bonus for me! Today I start using Fitday.com again to get my rear end back into shape!

Happy New Year to all!