TGIF!!!!

Thank god its Friday! What a long week its been. Nothing dramatic happened, but I feel like life has been sucked out of me! This will be the first weekend in a long time we will be home and not at the hospital without having plans. My goal is to have a "normal" weekend. Doing stuff I used to do, prior to 5 months ago, on the weekends. You know, clean, relax, do errands...stuff like that. I even came up with a to do list since there is so much to do!

Mom is making steps forward. It has been about 3 steps forward, 1 step back for the last 3 weeks. She can now get out of bed, use the bathroom, stuff like that. Still in the hospital though. Not physically ready to go to rehab. They have certain things she needs to be able to do physically that she can't from being kept in bed for 8 weeks. So she has to rebuild to them. The Dr is hoping in the next few weeks though she will get to rehab. Although it will most likely be the rehab right by the hospital vs the one close to home. They just want to be safe because she has need some extra dialysis sessions due to being in bed so much. And if that happened on the weekend, they would end up taking her to the hospital anyways...2 hours away...so might as well keep her near there until she gets out of that pickle.

Last night I purchased a bunch of wine for when my friend comes over to visit next week...I have a feeling though that it will all be gone by then.

My goal this weekend: Relax!

Status Update

Mom has finally started making progress. Her bedsore is healed, and they are working on building her strength back in order to get her ready to go to rehab. She is sitting up in a chair for over an hour at a crack. She has to get to 3 hours so she can do Dialysis. Once there, they will send her to rehab where she will have to relearn to walk again. I have been in regular contact with her Dr and discussing her medical condition. She has shown signifigant improvement in that area as well, and we are working on adjusting her meds, specifically the ones that play with her head. For the first time in such a long time this weekend I got to really talk to my mom. She carried on full conversations. What a relief.

On the home front though my husband admited to me that he feels left behind. That I am not making him a priority right now and he misses that. I am having difficulty juggling making everyone happy. Mom and Dad want me at the hospital (4 hours from our house) every weekend. My husband wants me home. I can't please everyone. In some ways I feel like he is being selfish...this hasn't been years...its only been 5 months. But yet I understand...if I lost him for 5 months I would be going insane. I just don't know how to make everyone happy. But in the same token, everyone keeps telling me, do whats right for you...make yourself happy. I don't even know what makes me happy though...is it going up there? Is it staying home? I just don't know. Seeing the shrink isn't helping me either. She helped me figure out a few things, like why I was so angry at my mother for so many years...but now that we are trying to work on "me" I don't feel she is helping, so I will probably stop going to see her. I just wish there was a magic answer...but there isn't. Please just give me strength to get through it, that is all I ask.

Another Update

So life continues to roll on. My weekends consist of driving to Marshfield to spend time with mom. This however will be the longest stretch I have not seen her since this all began...5 days assuming I go up this weekend. Which my husband is trying to get me not to do..."for my mental health". What he doesn't get is that my stomach is all a knot each day until my dad gets there and can tell me how she is doing.

A brief update on her health:

Heart: Doing ok...they are playing with some meds but nothing serious
Kidneys: Same
Head: A tiny bit better. This weekend she even asked some questions which is a huge step forwards.
Rest of body:

I just need to vent here about the physical therapy she is getting. It is sporadic to say the least. On Wednesday last week my father had to bring in the Hosptial Patient Advocate groupb because PT wasn't showing up at all. So Thursday and Friday she got great PT...but then Saturday and Sunday they didn't even get her out of bed! So back to the drawing board on that. I told dad to raise some hell today...so if I post asking for bail money for him you will know why!

Put Put Put

Just putting along. Nothing really new here.

I didn't get the show, which is fine by me. The show is being done by a local community college and they also invite community members to join. So they were definately shooting for more college kids to be in the show. I like to do theatre for the social aspect and no disrespect, but my idea of a good time right now isn't to hang out with a bunch of 19 year olds.

This Labor Day weekend we hopped a flight to Washington DC. I had never been and it was fantastic. We promised ourselves we wouldn't run ourselves ragged but we did. We saw so much and there is so much left to see. Can't wait to go back!

I will update when I actually have something to say.

Weekend Recap

Not too exciting this weekend, but here is a recap for those who are interested:

Weigh in: Somehow managed to drop those 3 pounds and ended up exactly where I was last week. I will take that.

Saturday morning: Went to do my friends hair for her. Got wasted by 10am. Her hair still turned out cute.

Saturday night: Went to a minor legue ball game with hubby. Night started out rotten, ended up just ok.

Sunday: Went to see my neice in her church pagent. She kept her back to the audience the whole time but still was adorable.

Sunday afternoon: Slept. There is nothing better then a nap!

There you have it folks, a recap of the boring life of me.

Pink Rocks

Pink Rocks!

Went to see her last night and man can she put on a show. Super high energy. She even did this Cirque de Soele thingy where she was flipping all over these ribbons!

Awesome show.

And you should get my business why?

So my husband and I want to do some small projects around the house that we hope will increase the value of the home so that when the housing market picks back up we can sell it. So this week I started reaching out and trying to find some people to do the work. I am starting with doing some updates to the bathroom. I visited a home show to get some names, I did a google search to find some local people, I even visited Craigslist.

My first annoyance was people talking down to me. Hey, I am coming to you because I dont know about grout and crap. Don't talk to me like I am a moron because I don't know if I have drywall or greenboard behind my showers surround. So cancel those people off the list who talked to me like dirt.

Next people to annoy me...people who think because I am asking for their help they can charge me an arm and a leg. Seriously. The quotes we got were all within the same range except for 2. They were $2000 more then the rest of the quotes. Your service can't be that different. All the rest are insured, can provide references, pictures of their work etc. What do you think I am, stupid?

The final people who made me mad are those who didn't follow through with the quote after I talked to them. "Oh yeah, it should be this amount, I will email it all to you in the next day". That was Monday. Today is Friday. Guess what buddy, even if you mailed it now, you lost my business. If you can't get your quote done on time why would I think you are going to get my bathroom done on time.

So that leaves one lone guy standing. So once I check his references I am pulling the trigger and getting the work started. Lesson to people trying to get my business. Don't play games with me or you will quickly lose my business.

March

I love the month of March. It is a month of renewal. It is the month that spring begins. Flowers start to bloom, trees bud. Oh I love spring. It is by far my favorite season.