Why?

Why is it when you ask people to do their job they act like you are asking for their first born child? I don't get the work ethic of so many people today. I would say "young people" but it isn't just younger people, it is people of all generations. There is a huge sense of entiltlement going on out there. Why? I seriously can't figure it out and it drives me nuts.

These people seriously think that just by showing up to work and doing the bare minimum to get by for their jobs that they are entitled to promotions and large raises over others who work harder...all because they have been with a company a couple months longer.

These are also the same people who are given mini reviews several times a year, but when it comes to the big one with the raise at the end of the year say "you never told me I wasn't exceeding expectations" and "why didn't i get a bigger raise".

I need to figure this out, let it go or something, or I am going to go nuts. I hang onto this kind of stuff far too much. I take it as a personal failure that I can't get through to them. Is it a failure on my part? People tell me it isn't but then why do I feel this way?

I'm walkin, yes indeed I'm walkin

So I have walked 3 times in this last week. I am feeling pretty good about that. Did I do it at the gym? No. Why? Because I find walking outside in the 30 degree air somehow easier. I know it is all mental. I find it easier for several reasons:

1) No damn clock staring at me like there is on the treadmill.
2) No damn "Pace" clock staring at me making me feel like I am failing because I am not doing 5MPH like my neighbor
3) I can act like an idiot and no one sees. Cause no one else is out in December so when I am walking and listening to my mp3 player I can do my jazz hands and dance to songs and no one looks at me funny
4) I walk faster then I do on the treadmill but it doesn't feel like it. I know I am going faster because I know how long my route is and I know how long it takes me to do on the treadmill vs being on the streets...and for some reason it takes me less time on the streets
5) I have a visual finish line, the Big Blue water tower by my house that I can see from anywhere in town.

Now I know that being in Illinois that any day now the snow is going to fall, or we are going to hit -20 degrees and walking outside will not be realistic so I will be heading back to the gym. But I am finding to get back into the swing of things that walking outside is easier for me. My next goals are:

• Increase back to 5 days a week where I was before
• Increase the length of time I walk (currently 30 min) back to the 40 I was doing
• Pump the pace up. At one time I was acctually jogging half my workout. That was a sight, but I did it

Eating has been ok, not fabulous...but better then it was for sure. However my mouth is watering for some Queso from Qdoba! I will hold off on that but I might have to hit the sushi buffet, yum!

So when you see a crazy lady walking down the streets of Illinois doing jazz hands and lip syncing to JT's Sexyback...give a honk and wave! I will know that you are on my side in this crazy journey!

Cleaning therapy

So does anyone else consider cleaning a sort of therapy or am I just nuts? I am not a total crazy person when it comes to cleaning...but I do like my house to not have crap laying all over. I get so stressed out when there are piles all over the place. With the holiday this weekend I didn't get to do my usual routine, and I was way stressed about the pigsty I call my house.

Now mind you, I am not a white glove kind of cleaner, but I do like to be able to see my floor, or the tops of my tables. So when I couldn't see the top of my end table yesterday I freaked. Two hours later of decluttering made me feel better then a day at the spa. Yes, I know...freaking crazy!

My husband always says "it isn't bad" when I am stressing about it...but he is a good man and when he knows I need to clean he leaves the area. This comes after our first years together when I would clean when he was in the room and I would hear "why you doing that, it looks fine". Finally we came to a compromise, I clean, he leaves. It works for us.

As for the weight loss journey, yeah...still working...no new news there. Stay tuned!

For my deer hunter friends: Looks like Bambi finally is getting revenge! Gotta love this!

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Post Christmas Resolutions

So I decided to begin my resolutions early this year...instead of waiting for New Years, I decided to start now. Why? Because I recieved a fabulous gift from my husband that is making me want to kick my butt into gear. He gave me a cruise that we are taking in September. Why does that kick my butt into gear you ask? Because my weight has gotten the better of me...again. In 2006 I did great, lost 75 pounds...was on my way to a healthy weight for once in my life. What happened this year? Who the H$# knows. But I have put some of it back on...and I can't seem to get my butt back into gear. My goal is to lose everything I gained plus some. So wish me luck. I will be using this blog to chronical my journey, which will hopefully get me to stick to it better this time.