Catching up

How does life fly by so fast? And why do our parents have to grow old?

Went to my inlaws for Thanksgiving, won't bore you with details...but on the last day, as we were getting ready to head to the airport, my phone rings. It's my brother, never a good sign. "Mom fell and broke her hip". I freak. Being across the country and out of range left me feeling helpless.

We flew home, and then drove 5 hours to the hospital. Long story short, broken hip has been replaced. She is on the mend, but how long that will take and will she ever be the same remains to be seen.

My mother has a host of other medical issues in addition to a "whoa is me" mentality. The Dr's don't see any reason why she shouldn't be able to get back to where she was at, but we will have to see if that is where she "wants" to be. Because if she decides that she doesn't want to give it 110%, she may be in a home. I am sad...very sad. I wish I had some magic words that would make her want to try that 110%, but nothing I say seems to trigger her. So I pray. I am not a super religious person...but I do believe in a higher power. So I pray and I pray and I pray. Not that she will be well, cause that is already been decided that she can be...but that that she has the desire to live and get better. And I thought as I was praying, you know, in the last 5-10 years, the only thing I have prayed for is my mother. I don't know how I should read that, but this also makes me sad.

So I guess I can sum up my feelings right now as just sad.

Another goal accomplished

Back in January I set myself some goals for the year. One of which was to take a hike. Why the hell would that be a goal? Because getting in shape was an overall goal, and taking a walk for pleasure was something I had never done. Flash forward to this past weekend. My husband and I went away to celebrate our anniversary. He loves lighthouses and the area we went to was ripe with them. One of them, you had to park in a tiny little lot and walk and walk and walk to get to, through the woods, over rocks...you get the picture.

As we were walking back I asked him "Would you consider what we just did a hike?" He said "yeah why?" I told him about the goal and asked him again if he thought it would count towards meeting the goal. Now you have to understand, my husband keeps me very honest about my workouts...when I say I was working at a high level he will tell me flat out that I wasn't...or if I say I worked out for 40 min, he will correct me that it was really only 38 minutes or whatever. So if he says I did a hike, I am taking that.

So another goal done for this year! Yeah for me!

The only goal I have not yet hit is my personal trip goal. I still need to take one trip by myself. I have 2 months to do it...wish me luck.

10%!

When you join Weight Watchers one of the first goals they set for you is the 10% goal. When you have lost 10% of your starting body weight. For me, this has been a long time coming because I have so much to lose. But today, I finally did it! I hit the 10% plus. Got my fancy keychain, got some applause...it was all good. But is this what I feel best about today? No...I feel best that I have finally lost just about all the weight I gained from my lowest loss. I have been feeling like the biggest loser in history because I put so much weight back on, after I had successfully lost before. I was down on myself, I felt awful. This kept me from putting my heart into it I think, I kept thinking, "I won't succeed this time just like I didn't succeed last time"...but now, I feel like I am getting it all back in control. Feeling good!

Total loss: 37 Pounds

In laws

My mother in law was in town this weekend. I have allot to say about it, but I don't want to get in trouble so I am biting my tongue. But I pose this question to readers, is it me, or does everyone out there have demanding inlaws? In asking my friends, they all do as well, so I am wondering, is it just me or is it in laws in general?

Finally!

3.5 pounds lost this week. I needed a big week to motivate me and finally got it. I didn't go to WW though cause my most adorable neice is with me...but my scale matches the WW scale to the tea...so I am confident I will see the same thing when I go.

Total loss: 32 pounds!

Fat?

I am going to weigh in on Britney's weight becuase this whole thing is bugging me.

Britneys performance sucked...that we all know. She looked like she was half asleep toppling on heels that were too high for any human. And don't even get me started on the hair.

But fat? Hell no! I am fat...this I know. And I outweigh her by more then a hundred pounds. I would give my left pinky to be her size, especially after 2 kids! Could she have worn an outfit that was more flattering yes. Heck 1/2 of America shouldn't be wearing the bathing suits they wear, but they do.

No wonder women in our society have f'd up body image. We are being told that 110 pounds is fat. Since when did this become fat? In reviewing the healthy weight guidelines established by our government, in most cases unless you are 4 ft nothing, that is underweight. My Dr. has set my healthy weight between 150 and 160. I personally will be happy at 180. But Britney is probably 120 tops. This makes me really sad about society, thinking that this is fat. What must they think of me?

Put Put Put

Just putting along. Nothing really new here.

I didn't get the show, which is fine by me. The show is being done by a local community college and they also invite community members to join. So they were definately shooting for more college kids to be in the show. I like to do theatre for the social aspect and no disrespect, but my idea of a good time right now isn't to hang out with a bunch of 19 year olds.

This Labor Day weekend we hopped a flight to Washington DC. I had never been and it was fantastic. We promised ourselves we wouldn't run ourselves ragged but we did. We saw so much and there is so much left to see. Can't wait to go back!

I will update when I actually have something to say.